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Tuesday, 24 May 2011

  • so is this marriage?

    Not much to it really

    But then there goes your privacy, at times that "other" life

    the things you really loved at first they give new meaning strife

    so is this love, devotion, right?

    I tell myself yes I suppose it is most every night

    But there is sometimes feigning involved still.

     

Friday, 28 January 2011

Monday, 22 February 2010

  • 2010 already?? what?

    I cant believe its already February and I have yet to make my once in awhile entry on xanga. That entry that reminds that I'm still connected to my youth. That yes Cynthia you did have a troubled and obscure view of yourself and of situations. That yes Cynthia I'm still here to remind you of the happy and of the painful. 
    Yes Cynthia your life is still taking you in all crazy and careless directions.

    So to start of this year right.  I start my entry on this day here of February 22 2010. I hereby do promise to write you more my dear xanga. It has truly been too long and I do miss this old routine.

Saturday, 30 May 2009

  • confusion in a cup

     So too much has happened within the past few weeks. My emotions have been a roller coaster of extreme and severe paranoia to feeling like I'm the most immoral person in the world.

    I am no longer engaged.

    I love two men.

    I no longer know what direction my life is heading in.

    I'm at crossroads with myself.

    I don't know what I want and if I deserve what I currently have.

    Love was defined to me as

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    • Birthday: 3/24/1985
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