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Saturday, 30 May 2009

  • confusion in a cup

     So too much has happened within the past few weeks. My emotions have been a roller coaster of extreme and severe paranoia to feeling like I'm the most immoral person in the world.

    I am no longer engaged.

    I love two men.

    I no longer know what direction my life is heading in.

    I'm at crossroads with myself.

    I don't know what I want and if I deserve what I currently have.

    Love was defined to me as

Monday, 27 April 2009

  • Currently: Crash

    Engagements, graduation, leaving Michigan oh no!

      Piles of crap everywhere. Absolutely everywhere. It has to be a crime to own this much stuff. It's taken me 3 very lazy very slow says to pack. Well it will be 3 and I'm still nowhere near done.
    My beautiful big windowy apartment looks more vacant and lonely everyday. My mattress is leaving me tomorrow so I'll have to sleep on the floor for the remainder of my two days here in Houghton Michigan.

    Graduation is officially on saturday but my flight leaves at 7 am on Friday.

     Has it all really come to this? I'm returning to my sweet Hawaii and know that when I head back, it'll be different. Not only am I engaged, but I don't have my apartment to come home to. I don't have my beautiful kitties Midnight and Winter and I dont have a messy collection of winter gear strewn about the place. No more heat bills and Wells Fargo. No more knowing everyone by name in this shy but nosy little town.

    I'll miss my Pearl Street Subway. My friends and coworkers with their crazy stories. I'll miss my non existent roommate who beside the odds I maintained a very close connection to.

    I'll miss my beautiful and amazing dear friend Christy. I don't know what I'll do without you.

    I guess it's time for me to leave my beautiful Upper Penninsula Michigan.
    I will return. I promise.

Thursday, 26 February 2009

Saturday, 20 December 2008

Friday, 12 December 2008

  • Ending of the semester and the beginning of more tragedies

      So woot woot school will be over after exams next week and than its back home to the islands for me! I haven't been home in a year so I'm pretty excited.

     I miss my ugly dog, the annoying siblings, and those weird friends of mine that managed to keep in touch with me when I was truly joking about it (=D). I'll bring the boyfriend and we'll lay on the beach and I'll wonder if I'm getting lots of sand in my hair and why for some reason, the beach doesn't look as pretty as it used to when I lived there.

    I'm not sure what's in store for me this summer but I know that it will consists of more classes. But let's not go there yet.

    If there's one thing I learned this semester it's that I suck at physics. I find everything intriguing and grasp the basic concepts. It's just when you throw in all the equations and need to convert everything from asshole to motherfucker that I get lost and confused.

    Oh well. Better luck next time. Maybe.

    Ok well I need to get back to work. Though don't currently have anything for me to do but I've got a good book I'm reading.

    Has anyone learned anything this past semester? If it's anything remotely bitter, I'd like to be the first to know.

    End.

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